Crossroads

Sandwiched with maybes and ifs.

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I'm feeling better,

The kind of better that keeps

Me on my toes;

The kind of happy that

Makes me smile, a bit;

It is the emotion that is between

Euphoria and Anxiety

In the midst of laughter and tears;

It is the victory that never

Lets me shot for joy

Because I never know

If am really sure;

It is the kind of love

That never lets me sleep at night

Although I'm dead tired and weary;

It is the moment when

I wake up prematurely

When I just dreamed about my crush;

It is that time in my life

When I chose the kiss

Even when I know that 

It wasn't going to last.

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WHY

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I've been feeling so down lately and I just want to let it all go here. Since almost all of my posts here are from those not so good days.

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It was so hard letting you go

It took me forever

And I tried fooling myself

That I was successful In doing so

But deep inside I know I wasn't

But I lived with it

Taking each day as it comes

Moving you into my periphery

Into the sidelines but you're still there

And when I felt that I'm finally making peace

With our past, I was happy

It was a bittersweet victory

But a victory nonetheless

Then you came back in the picture

Offering a second chance that I really didn't need

And yet I took it wholeheartedly

With what's left of it, that is,

Good thing I took notes

During the first time I was moving on

I believe that I have to do it again

You are hurting me with your distance

And indifference 

Please do not comeback.

I don't want to go through it all over again.

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